For logistical reasons (I think mostly because it is long, really long) I decided to post the chapter in half. Maybe later will edit and post it together, we'll find out just living! * _ *
A special thanks to the MEDEATHENA for BEAUTIFUL , as well as BULLISSIMA Ava .... Thank you, sweetie!
"Riot Grrrl Le Tigre
Everything now took place according to the concert. I found a lot more hours than usual, adjust all arraggiandoli our songs better and trying to make sense of some songs that seemed to be pure noise.
However, nothing could distract us from thinking of Jack and our last meeting. In his eyes, his wanton violence and most of all to his words, like saw blades, as powerful as bullets. I had not heard since that time, to be honest I do not even dare to call it the phone was silent. My head became silent, unable to think of an idea to take the courage to take matters in hand. What was taken? Why do this? I could not answer or just did not want to give me an answer that ofuscata its golden made me fall in love with him.
recounted the incident to Elvira, omit some details to you too, that part of the wall and the indecent proposals more than anything else, and his reaction was not the best. At first it seemed determined to go and smash his face shortly after he opted to wait right there and if it were presented to remake such a thing ... He would split his face.
Elvira had noticed a tinge of sadness and disappointment in my eyes and had surrendered. He knew only too well how much he cared for him and, despite his cynical side told me to leave him alone at least for a while, his affectionate side told me to find it anywhere you find and talk to him, to clarify because they deserve answers. But what I was willing to be told the truth from him?
I tried to call him a whole afternoon, I seemed to go mad, for each ring was as if I were to blow his head at any moment.
only the third time, and after thirty Ring said. His voice crept into my mind and with it the conviction and the desire to see him. The call lasted only a few minutes, just long enough to reach an agreement and agreeing on the place and time. Maybe it was random, or maybe not, but decided to meet at Criponotte, the restaurant where we had met.
arrived slightly earlier. I sat at the bar and ordered to drink. I played with the glass as I watched the people inside those four walls dark writhing dances unlikely, rubs sensual.
I ran a hand through his hair, putting on the front door hoping to go see Jack in all its beauty sour. My attention, however, was captured by a girl who was dancing alone in the middle of the track. The high heels, tight dress that emphasized all its sinuous curves, long legs and perfect, his thick brown hair made her a goddess who danced slow and indifferent to everything around her. For a moment I envied. Yes, every movement was perfect and harmonious, all eyes of the men rested on her, but she seemed more than everything and everyone. I thought I was clumsy as compared to her, because I'm stupid and embarrassing thrown up on a stage, perhaps out of place, unsure. That was my problem and terribly insecure.
"A smooth vodka"
A crystalline voice and terribly sensual broke my pathetic thoughts. The dancer before have I sat by my side. Up close, it seemed, as far as possible, even more divine and wonderful.
smiling at nothing, he looked around to make excited, too excited ... He was tipsy, there was no doubt.
"All alone tonight, too?" her large eyes were on me, his lips parted in a beatific smile, but that he uttered an air terribly fascinating.
'Well, for now. I'm expecting a boy. " I smiled shyly, not much inclined to dialogue. It was not very evening.
"a date?" he asked, as the bartender handed her the glass.
"No, I'd call" smiles still trying to give a playful tone to the thing, even though there was little to laugh.
"I understand." He put his lips to the edge of the cup and took a sip, "I am here alone. I'm not expecting anyone. You know, I'm well on its own. I mean, I'm young, pretty. I want to be a free spirit. I evil? " his flow of words hit me, but the handful of phrases I relaxed.
"Of course not." I looked down giggling.
"Do not you ever sopprafare by feelings!" he said with a gulp and finished his drink.
"It 's funny, a few years ago I would have said yes, CONTAC! Right now I'd tell you but ... Heck, I did, leaving my feelings for a boy and I feel bad every time something bad happens and I'm in seventh heaven when things go well. " I laughed not so convinced as if that statement was funny, far from it. A bitter laugh, talk and vent reduced to a perfect sconociuta.
"Aaah, so this guy you're waiting for you has just stolen heart!? "
" Yes, you could say so ... E 'already late by the way. "I sighed.
" A man who does not expect a woman can only be a great lout! "Moved aside a lock of hair and then swinging his thick brown hair and shiny.
" I d 'Agreement. "I nodded keeping my bitter smile.
" Come on, do not stress too much. "He stood swaying just" I'm going home before ending up in bed with one of these men without my noticing! "a laugh loud and his hand raised to his mouth to stifle "We'll see ... Hopefully soon. Ah, I'm Ava ... "She gave me and winked.
" Uhm ... I ... I Lucrezia ... Yes, soon. "I did just which disappeared in time to greet the crowd.
After all, it was a good idea to have talked to that girl, I lifted a little, cursed by my stream of disconnected thoughts. Then I focused again on the bottom of my glass is now empty.
PASSOR maybe another 10 minutes and Jack arrived. Beautiful, beautiful as ever. Its smell invaded my nostrils forcefully. A fragrance that at that moment seemed a poison.
He sat down.
"Hey, hello." He settled on the stool in order to have me in front of him, "Sorry I'm late, I had problems with the cab. It 'been waiting long?" was quiet, terribly quiet, as if nothing had ever happened.
"No, no." I lied. It was after half an hour, if not more.
"You look down. What?" to your question as soon as the half-closed lips, as it was possible that we can not guess the real reason for my mood.
"Uhm ... I do not know the last time we met ..." swallowed "How Not to say ... well we broke up"
"Lo, I know, Lu," once again my name coming out those lips that I was called as a song of a mermaid "is that I do not know .... It 's a difficult period. The university, and the rest of the group. Sometimes I'm stressed and I act so unbearable .. . shrugged, looked displeased.
"Mmm ... I see." I nodded and tried a sense of pity for myself.
"Come on, I'm sorry, Mon.'ll Try not to do it again, ok?" approached me and put his hand on his knee, smiling.
"Ok ..." I was confused, titubai a moment and then immediately hugged me. How could I resist? Labile My psyche was convinced that was a mistake, a mistake could happen. After all I had just promised that the 'would have it again. I believed him, I could only follow my heart. Right or wrong it was my choice.
"So? Tells me what my favorite blonde? "Changed the subject. Dispelling clarification, and not even had the strength to argue, to insist, to know. Nothing, I agreed with your heart more light. I fled from my problem, like a good coward.
"You know I'll play Saturday at Sound Violent?" Excited and with a light heart.
"Wow, really? Great! It 's a very strange room, prepared. "Rise passing his hand through his hair.
" Really? We're all crazy. We can not wait! You'll come? "So I said straight off, without thinking, at that moment as if it were normal, as if he were praying, looking hopeful.
" On Saturday you say? "Thought for a moment" I'm afraid I can not come. I have to study all afternoon and in the evening if I can not stop. "The term sorry.
The umpteenth stab to the heart.
" Ah ... " DISPOSED trying to show the natural and quiet and not on the verge of crying 'Well, if you have to study ... It does not matter. But I would be happy if I was from. You know ... "I shrugged my shoulders, hoping to convince him with compassion.
" Of course I do, baby. "He kissed her lips lightly and I feel like dying" I'll do anything, but I assure you nothing. "smiled
sighed.
talked about this and that for another half hour and then he ran away. Business major, snapped, and disappeared.
I was left alone for a little longer at the bar to think about anything.
Then I walked on foot, STAC and disappointed with myself for every single word I uttered. The fear of losing him was too strong and something led me to bend my head.
However, nothing could distract us from thinking of Jack and our last meeting. In his eyes, his wanton violence and most of all to his words, like saw blades, as powerful as bullets. I had not heard since that time, to be honest I do not even dare to call it the phone was silent. My head became silent, unable to think of an idea to take the courage to take matters in hand. What was taken? Why do this? I could not answer or just did not want to give me an answer that ofuscata its golden made me fall in love with him.
recounted the incident to Elvira, omit some details to you too, that part of the wall and the indecent proposals more than anything else, and his reaction was not the best. At first it seemed determined to go and smash his face shortly after he opted to wait right there and if it were presented to remake such a thing ... He would split his face.
Elvira had noticed a tinge of sadness and disappointment in my eyes and had surrendered. He knew only too well how much he cared for him and, despite his cynical side told me to leave him alone at least for a while, his affectionate side told me to find it anywhere you find and talk to him, to clarify because they deserve answers. But what I was willing to be told the truth from him?
I tried to call him a whole afternoon, I seemed to go mad, for each ring was as if I were to blow his head at any moment.
only the third time, and after thirty Ring said. His voice crept into my mind and with it the conviction and the desire to see him. The call lasted only a few minutes, just long enough to reach an agreement and agreeing on the place and time. Maybe it was random, or maybe not, but decided to meet at Criponotte, the restaurant where we had met.
arrived slightly earlier. I sat at the bar and ordered to drink. I played with the glass as I watched the people inside those four walls dark writhing dances unlikely, rubs sensual.
I ran a hand through his hair, putting on the front door hoping to go see Jack in all its beauty sour. My attention, however, was captured by a girl who was dancing alone in the middle of the track. The high heels, tight dress that emphasized all its sinuous curves, long legs and perfect, his thick brown hair made her a goddess who danced slow and indifferent to everything around her. For a moment I envied. Yes, every movement was perfect and harmonious, all eyes of the men rested on her, but she seemed more than everything and everyone. I thought I was clumsy as compared to her, because I'm stupid and embarrassing thrown up on a stage, perhaps out of place, unsure. That was my problem and terribly insecure.
"A smooth vodka"
A crystalline voice and terribly sensual broke my pathetic thoughts. The dancer before have I sat by my side. Up close, it seemed, as far as possible, even more divine and wonderful.
smiling at nothing, he looked around to make excited, too excited ... He was tipsy, there was no doubt.
"All alone tonight, too?" her large eyes were on me, his lips parted in a beatific smile, but that he uttered an air terribly fascinating.
'Well, for now. I'm expecting a boy. " I smiled shyly, not much inclined to dialogue. It was not very evening.
"a date?" he asked, as the bartender handed her the glass.
"No, I'd call
"I understand." He put his lips to the edge of the cup and took a sip, "I am here alone. I'm not expecting anyone. You know, I'm well on its own. I mean, I'm young, pretty. I want to be a free spirit. I evil? " his flow of words hit me, but the handful of phrases I relaxed.
"Of course not." I looked down giggling.
"Do not you ever sopprafare by feelings!" he said with a gulp and finished his drink.
"It 's funny, a few years ago I would have said yes, CONTAC! Right now I'd tell you but ... Heck, I did, leaving my feelings for a boy and I feel bad every time something bad happens and I'm in seventh heaven when things go well. " I laughed not so convinced as if that statement was funny, far from it. A bitter laugh, talk and vent reduced to a perfect sconociuta.
"Aaah, so this guy you're waiting for you has just stolen heart!? "
" Yes, you could say so ... E 'already late by the way. "I sighed.
" A man who does not expect a woman can only be a great lout! "Moved aside a lock of hair and then swinging his thick brown hair and shiny.
" I d 'Agreement. "I nodded keeping my bitter smile.
" Come on, do not stress too much. "He stood swaying just" I'm going home before ending up in bed with one of these men without my noticing! "a laugh loud and his hand raised to his mouth to stifle "We'll see ... Hopefully soon. Ah, I'm Ava ... "She gave me and winked.
" Uhm ... I ... I Lucrezia ... Yes, soon. "I did just which disappeared in time to greet the crowd.
After all, it was a good idea to have talked to that girl, I lifted a little, cursed by my stream of disconnected thoughts. Then I focused again on the bottom of my glass is now empty.
PASSOR maybe another 10 minutes and Jack arrived. Beautiful, beautiful as ever. Its smell invaded my nostrils forcefully. A fragrance that at that moment seemed a poison.
He sat down.
"Hey, hello." He settled on the stool in order to have me in front of him, "Sorry I'm late, I had problems with the cab. It 'been waiting long?" was quiet, terribly quiet, as if nothing had ever happened.
"No, no." I lied. It was after half an hour, if not more.
"You look down. What?" to your question as soon as the half-closed lips, as it was possible that we can not guess the real reason for my mood.
"Uhm ... I do not know the last time we met ..." swallowed "How Not to say ... well we broke up"
"Lo, I know, Lu," once again my name coming out those lips that I was called as a song of a mermaid "is that I do not know .... It 's a difficult period. The university, and the rest of the group. Sometimes I'm stressed and I act so unbearable .. . shrugged, looked displeased.
"Mmm ... I see." I nodded and tried a sense of pity for myself.
"Come on, I'm sorry, Mon.'ll Try not to do it again, ok?" approached me and put his hand on his knee, smiling.
"Ok ..." I was confused, titubai a moment and then immediately hugged me. How could I resist? Labile My psyche was convinced that was a mistake, a mistake could happen. After all I had just promised that the 'would have it again. I believed him, I could only follow my heart. Right or wrong it was my choice.
"So? Tells me what my favorite blonde? "Changed the subject. Dispelling clarification, and not even had the strength to argue, to insist, to know. Nothing, I agreed with your heart more light. I fled from my problem, like a good coward.
"You know I'll play Saturday at Sound Violent?" Excited and with a light heart.
"Wow, really? Great! It 's a very strange room, prepared. "Rise passing his hand through his hair.
" Really? We're all crazy. We can not wait! You'll come? "So I said straight off, without thinking, at that moment as if it were normal, as if he were praying, looking hopeful.
" On Saturday you say? "Thought for a moment" I'm afraid I can not come. I have to study all afternoon and in the evening if I can not stop. "The term sorry.
The umpteenth stab to the heart.
" Ah ... " DISPOSED trying to show the natural and quiet and not on the verge of crying 'Well, if you have to study ... It does not matter. But I would be happy if I was from. You know ... "I shrugged my shoulders, hoping to convince him with compassion.
" Of course I do, baby. "He kissed her lips lightly and I feel like dying" I'll do anything, but I assure you nothing. "smiled
sighed.
talked about this and that for another half hour and then he ran away. Business major, snapped, and disappeared.
I was left alone for a little longer at the bar to think about anything.
Then I walked on foot, STAC and disappointed with myself for every single word I uttered. The fear of losing him was too strong and something led me to bend my head.
