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The Concert - Part One

For logistical reasons (I think mostly because it is long, really long) I decided to post the chapter in half. Maybe later will edit and post it together, we'll find out just living! * _ *
A special thanks to the MEDEATHENA for BEAUTIFUL , as well as BULLISSIMA Ava .... Thank you, sweetie!

"Riot Grrrl Le Tigre

Everything now took place according to the concert. I found a lot more hours than usual, adjust all arraggiandoli our songs better and trying to make sense of some songs that seemed to be pure noise.
However, nothing could distract us from thinking of Jack and our last meeting. In his eyes, his wanton violence and most of all to his words, like saw blades, as powerful as bullets. I had not heard since that time, to be honest I do not even dare to call it the phone was silent. My head became silent, unable to think of an idea to take the courage to take matters in hand. What was taken? Why do this? I could not answer or just did not want to give me an answer that ofuscata its golden made me fall in love with him.
recounted the incident to Elvira, omit some details to you too, that part of the wall and the indecent proposals more than anything else, and his reaction was not the best. At first it seemed determined to go and smash his face shortly after he opted to wait right there and if it were presented to remake such a thing ... He would split his face.
Elvira had noticed a tinge of sadness and disappointment in my eyes and had surrendered. He knew only too well how much he cared for him and, despite his cynical side told me to leave him alone at least for a while, his affectionate side told me to find it anywhere you find and talk to him, to clarify because they deserve answers. But what I was willing to be told the truth from him?
I tried to call him a whole afternoon, I seemed to go mad, for each ring was as if I were to blow his head at any moment.



only the third time, and after thirty Ring said. His voice crept into my mind and with it the conviction and the desire to see him. The call lasted only a few minutes, just long enough to reach an agreement and agreeing on the place and time. Maybe it was random, or maybe not, but decided to meet at Criponotte, the restaurant where we had met.
arrived slightly earlier. I sat at the bar and ordered to drink. I played with the glass as I watched the people inside those four walls dark writhing dances unlikely, rubs sensual.



I ran a hand through his hair, putting on the front door hoping to go see Jack in all its beauty sour. My attention, however, was captured by a girl who was dancing alone in the middle of the track. The high heels, tight dress that emphasized all its sinuous curves, long legs and perfect, his thick brown hair made her a goddess who danced slow and indifferent to everything around her. For a moment I envied. Yes, every movement was perfect and harmonious, all eyes of the men rested on her, but she seemed more than everything and everyone. I thought I was clumsy as compared to her, because I'm stupid and embarrassing thrown up on a stage, perhaps out of place, unsure. That was my problem and terribly insecure.



"A smooth vodka"
A crystalline voice and terribly sensual broke my pathetic thoughts. The dancer before have I sat by my side. Up close, it seemed, as far as possible, even more divine and wonderful.
smiling at nothing, he looked around to make excited, too excited ... He was tipsy, there was no doubt.
"All alone tonight, too?" her large eyes were on me, his lips parted in a beatific smile, but that he uttered an air terribly fascinating.
'Well, for now. I'm expecting a boy. " I smiled shyly, not much inclined to dialogue. It was not very evening.
"a date?" he asked, as the bartender handed her the glass.
"No, I'd call " smiles still trying to give a playful tone to the thing, even though there was little to laugh.
"I understand." He put his lips to the edge of the cup and took a sip, "I am here alone. I'm not expecting anyone. You know, I'm well on its own. I mean, I'm young, pretty. I want to be a free spirit. I evil? " his flow of words hit me, but the handful of phrases I relaxed.
"Of course not." I looked down giggling.
"Do not you ever sopprafare by feelings!" he said with a gulp and finished his drink.



"It 's funny, a few years ago I would have said yes, CONTAC! Right now I'd tell you but ... Heck, I did, leaving my feelings for a boy and I feel bad every time something bad happens and I'm in seventh heaven when things go well. " I laughed not so convinced as if that statement was funny, far from it. A bitter laugh, talk and vent reduced to a perfect sconociuta.
"Aaah, so this guy you're waiting for you has just stolen heart!? "
" Yes, you could say so ... E 'already late by the way. "I sighed.
" A man who does not expect a woman can only be a great lout! "Moved aside a lock of hair and then swinging his thick brown hair and shiny.
" I d 'Agreement. "I nodded keeping my bitter smile.
" Come on, do not stress too much. "He stood swaying just" I'm going home before ending up in bed with one of these men without my noticing! "a laugh loud and his hand raised to his mouth to stifle "We'll see ... Hopefully soon. Ah, I'm Ava ... "She gave me and winked.
" Uhm ... I ... I Lucrezia ... Yes, soon. "I did just which disappeared in time to greet the crowd.
After all, it was a good idea to have talked to that girl, I lifted a little, cursed by my stream of disconnected thoughts. Then I focused again on the bottom of my glass is now empty.
PASSOR maybe another 10 minutes and Jack arrived. Beautiful, beautiful as ever. Its smell invaded my nostrils forcefully. A fragrance that at that moment seemed a poison.
He sat down.
"Hey, hello." He settled on the stool in order to have me in front of him, "Sorry I'm late, I had problems with the cab. It 'been waiting long?" was quiet, terribly quiet, as if nothing had ever happened.



"No, no." I lied. It was after half an hour, if not more.
"You look down. What?" to your question as soon as the half-closed lips, as it was possible that we can not guess the real reason for my mood.
"Uhm ... I do not know the last time we met ..." swallowed "How Not to say ... well we broke up"
"Lo, I know, Lu," once again my name coming out those lips that I was called as a song of a mermaid "is that I do not know .... It 's a difficult period. The university, and the rest of the group. Sometimes I'm stressed and I act so unbearable .. . shrugged, looked displeased.
"Mmm ... I see." I nodded and tried a sense of pity for myself.
"Come on, I'm sorry, Mon.'ll Try not to do it again, ok?" approached me and put his hand on his knee, smiling.
"Ok ..." I was confused, titubai a moment and then immediately hugged me. How could I resist? Labile My psyche was convinced that was a mistake, a mistake could happen. After all I had just promised that the 'would have it again. I believed him, I could only follow my heart. Right or wrong it was my choice.
"So? Tells me what my favorite blonde? "Changed the subject. Dispelling clarification, and not even had the strength to argue, to insist, to know. Nothing, I agreed with your heart more light. I fled from my problem, like a good coward.
"You know I'll play Saturday at Sound Violent?" Excited and with a light heart.
"Wow, really? Great! It 's a very strange room, prepared. "Rise passing his hand through his hair.
" Really? We're all crazy. We can not wait! You'll come? "So I said straight off, without thinking, at that moment as if it were normal, as if he were praying, looking hopeful.
" On Saturday you say? "Thought for a moment" I'm afraid I can not come. I have to study all afternoon and in the evening if I can not stop. "The term sorry.
The umpteenth stab to the heart.
" Ah ... " DISPOSED trying to show the natural and quiet and not on the verge of crying 'Well, if you have to study ... It does not matter. But I would be happy if I was from. You know ... "I shrugged my shoulders, hoping to convince him with compassion.



" Of course I do, baby. "He kissed her lips lightly and I feel like dying" I'll do anything, but I assure you nothing. "smiled
sighed.
talked about this and that for another half hour and then he ran away. Business major, snapped, and disappeared.
I was left alone for a little longer at the bar to think about anything.



Then I walked on foot, STAC and disappointed with myself for every single word I uttered. The fear of losing him was too strong and something led me to bend my head.

What Color Tie With Pink Shirt

Hopes and Illusions

Ok, I would say that for these two days I've bored you enough. XD
I catch up with weekly updates, as this I had practically already written more than half time ago.
I added a midi for each episode with the song I hear as I write. If you want aacoltare the soundtrack as you read just press Play ...
XD Okay, enough, to be home sick means is very bad ... . _. "

Happy reading!

"Mr. Self Destruct" NIN


During the holidays it does not snow and I felt the nostalgia, it was nice to get lost listening to the silence produced by the soft white coat, but all survived to that lack.
few days after the holidays ended I met Jack, if possible even better than usual, and I realized what I liked, what attracted me and I began to feel very much more to him. Hours and hours trying to prepare for the best, hands sweaty and my stomach in turmoil, almost worse than the first times I had seen him. Berci
We went to a cafe and told me everything he had done. Seemed to have fun much without me. It did not seem particularly upset that I was not with him, but he promised that next time I might come if I wanted. After all, I thought we were together so recently that it was normal not run my holidays together, it was just my impression. Evidently I was burning just a little bit that she did all those things without me. I tried to ignore it and let me pass the paranoia. I would have shown too heavy if I complained too much and I did not want stupid discussions went so well. He treated me well, it was sweet, bright, and I believe not only in my eyes. It was full of friends, was a popular guy and the fact that his girlfriend made me proud as anyone. A queen, made me feel like a queen.

I went home with his head completely in the ball, the effect that Jack was on me was similar to the effect of a drug addiction not only gave, but the effects were in the true sense of the word, amazing. Find
Jamie bored with turning the TV channels which as usual did not offer anything good.
"What a boring afternoon, is not it, Jamie?" Greeted him.
"Hey, hello, Lu! Yes, very depressing ... "I settled on the couch next to him" You're out with Jack this afternoon? "



" Yeah, sure ... "
" You see! " not held back a chuckle, noting my face lost in the void was obviously easier than I thought.
"Yes, I realize ..." I blushed violently before changing the subject "Where is Elvis?" I asked, not seeing it run like a tornado for the dorm.
"It 's output with that of the blond party, remember?"
"Wow!" Exclaimed in wonder, Elvira who was dating a guy for so long? It was a novelty.
"It looks like a relationship, eh?"
No, Elvis was not the type. Above all, I had never said anything special about this guy, if it was something important he would talk as an exceptional event. Elly never did anything for nothing, hiding something.
"How serious? Are you kidding? Elvira? Nope, I do not think. It does not seem particularly taken. I do not know, but there is something underneath. "
Jamie shook her head smiling," Strange, when Elvira does something there's always something, is disturbing, but now beginning to get used to. "Elvira
Waiting for us to have presented his findings began to to talk about this and that. He was always nice to talk to Jamie. It was very relaxing, with him you could really talk about everything with no problems. A good listener who always left a little but reveal their moods. Only if you looked good in eyes could see if he was happy, sad, upset. He did not want anything in exchange for Jamie. It was a sort of guardian angel.
"So, little Jamie? How's the Cheer? "I settled on the side of the sofa to get it perfectly in front of me, as he stared at me wide-eyed and about to turn red in the face. I also liked to embarrass him, it was common knowledge that girls do not talk about was his forte.
"Mary ...?" asked and was at that point that something changed in its look. A mix of bitterness and despair. Maybe it was just my impression.
"Yes, Mary ... Do you have a girl who is so called. "I tried to joke Abbadon the position taken shortly before, because I did not think the case does not put his finger on the ever if things had not gone to the best among them. "It 's something wrong?" I asked worried.
chuckled without fun, running a hand over his face "No, nothing special. It seems to me only ... Cold toward me. "
" Cold? "
" Yes, when I talk to always seems that he is in the clouds. Sometimes you forget to call me ... It seems less grip, here. "
" Have you tried talking to her? "Mary did not know at all, had not done much to become your friend, but ... It seemed that we would avoid so I did not know if that was the typical behavior of Mary, or, actually, there was something wrong.
"Yeah .. I tried. He told me that I'm paranoid so I had to give up the towel, I had to do?" shrugged.



"You're so good, Jamie." I smiled.
"Yeah, I think I also ... The fact is that I want her, makes me feel really paranoid, maybe ... "he sighed," I just hope it is a period. "
" Sure, you'll see that everything will reset. "The places his hand on his shoulder," you will surely paranoid. "I joked and he smiled back, laughing shyly. I really hope so for him, did not deserve to suffer.
We remained silent a second, he lost in a thousand thoughts, before they broke again.
"And you, Lu? What about Jack? "Always with her sweet smile that infuse warmth and serenity.



"A party that lost are cooked? Nothing would say "I laughed almost hysterically. I thought just spent the afternoon and I felt invaded by happiness.
"You know, when you're together I was very surprised." Always the tone sweet and almost brotherly.
"Really? How come? "
" It looks really changed my dear Jack. "
" Changed? "
" Yeah .. In high school it was awful! "
I was really curious, not I was never going to rummage into the past of Jack. Not much, in fact. A little bit because I did not want to seem too urgent, a bit because I thought I was hurt in some way, but now I was damn curious.
"Really? Tell me! "I restrained myself, my request was emitted from my lips at the speed of light. I did not bother even to talk about it with Jamie, the bottom was a friend, he never said anything to Jack. He enjoyed himself to gossip, as it does not give to see.
Jamie's face broke into a broad smile.
'Well, it was one of the classic types who did not want a serious story. He used a little women. "
" Ok, let's go slowly. He was a womanizer? "My reaction touched the psychopath and compulsive maniac, but when it came to Jack ... I
posizionai crossing his legs in front of Jamie, not a word was not to escape me.
'Well, not to fret, but ... Yes, He had a lot of girls. And he obviously we tread in the hand. He would go out at night and they brought home at least one. All the girls drooling behind in high school, I told you that was very popular. He has charm. He had more success giocari of the football team. Really ... "he repeated, seeing wide-eyed and incredulous. "And when I heard that ... Did you ... "pause, snapped his fingers as if he did not arrive the right word to use, "You were ..." I understood everything. The usual so Jamie, and his discourses on sex did not go well together.
"Come on, Jamie, say ..." I sighed holding back laughter.
"Did you ... Be ', in other words you understand ... "
" How are you sir, Jamie ... "
" Well ... "his face was completely red now and extremely funny" and then when you told me you had not called ... I felt guilty, I should tell you. But you were so busy that I did not take you down ... "
" Jamie "I froze" who cares? There 's been good, right? "
" Indeed! I was really happy when I saw you together. Seems to have changed, as I said. One can see that it was just infatuated, Mon! "
" E 'fell into my trap! "Joked assuming an evil grin, mimicking more like Elvira.
"Yes, I see you're just his type, right?" He said softly.
"I hope so ... Well, right now if he were the shit, somehow it breaks my heart. "I sighed, now lost in the usual blank expression.



"Yeah ... Then Elvira would kill him ... I would just fill the barrel. "
" I do not suppose so violent, "laughed crystalline, more for the happiness than anything else.
"What are you laughing?! Do not believe me?! Just looks like pesto battery. "
" You're right ... There is no doubt. "
" And everyone who hurt my little Lu is intended to take the rap on the head drum. Including Jack! "Both laughed and then I wrapped her shoulders with a braccio.Mi was a shiver down my spine. I felt as if nothing could hurt me.


At that moment came running to lose breath Elvira. He seemed to have all ten kilometers of trail running, probably had climbed the stairs three steps at a time.



"What is it?" Screamed in chorus me and Jamie.
He tried to talk but not walked out over big sigh interrupted by vowels and consonants, the tongue was almost knotting.
"Elly, what the hell language are you talking about?" Jamie held no more laughter.
"Jamie, was out of breath!" I pointed out, if he had not yet understood.
"Sit down, Elly, and return," the seat next to me and I settled down, holding her hand on his chest to stop the crazy beat of the heart. What on earth could be so urgent to be run that way?
spent ten minutes and three glasses of good water, then handed her the trouble.
"So ... Oh, I going to be a heart attack. Cabbage. So, I said ... You know the blond of the party? Paul? Pier? PierPaolo? "He put a hand to his chin" Boh ... Okay'..." continued to gesticulate, was not an especially important apparently.
"Luckily, it often!" I said with a chuckle.
"Well ..." snorted "You know ... We found an overlap! None of that, eh ... Ma .. Play in local real! "He yelled.
slightly ajar lips with an expression between surprised and delighted. Was there a chance to perform in anything but a narrow and dusty room?!
"Come on, shoot everything! I want details! "Exclaimed Jamie, what amazed me.
"So ... Mr. Biondononmiricordobenecometichiami knows very well the owner of a room just outside the city. It 's a little local esisbiscono in which local small groups. With a little luck and talent some of these are slowly emerging in the underground scene. Now, Mr. biondinoblabla had promised me he would ask this guy, speaking well of us, if you could let us play there. I have not I told you anything before for the simple fact that there was nothing for sure. But now it seems that the type has been accepted and then next Saturday playing live !!!!"
"Elly, I will adooooooroooooo !!!!" I jumped at the neck without worrying about do not choke.
"Very Big! This explains everything that interest to the Pier. "Even Jamie was the picture of felictà" Why is it called Pier. "
" Wow! I went next door, Jamie, eh! "Seraphic smile, as if it was normal not to remember the name of the guy you go out.
"Oh, almost forgot ... We need photos. "He said with no carelessness, the same seraphic smile.
"What picture? Type? "I was quite surprised.
"A kind of photo shoot. The guy in the room I do not think it was quite normal: he wants a photo of every band that plays there. Rocker exalted! "Shook his head" I believe to do it just to get in the rare case that the group is successful. Sick! Anyway just only a picture with our name. A group photo with a logo, in fact. "



" A logo? "I said worried." Where the hell you find it ... Wait ... I'll do it Jamie. And 'good with computers. "Of course it was good, I was his field.
"Ok, girls, perfect, I think I can ... But the photos real? "



" I could change the color of hair. "It seemed really thoughtful.
" Very interesting. Always the same. I mean the place. The background. Poses! "
" Jamie, do not worry. We will do a simple thing. You'll see, I have some ideas. "And when did Elvis had not already figured everything?
"We must quickly though. This Saturday is one of ... 10 days! "Jamie came back and really really worried.
"You, Jamie, I put forward, you know?" Waved his hands on his hips.
"I am restless, Elly!"'s Eyes widened.



"I have to slap?" Raised a hand "Trust and nothing else." And he pointed his finger across his chest.

The next day, after class, Elvira took us in the park on campus, and there we took lots of photos with the car Automatic Jamie.
After a thousand photos and a thousand proofs of logos the result was a nice picture of us against a crumbling wall in impromptu rock star poses and a sign with our name in square characters and jagged profile with a bright red star in the center. Not much, but it was still acceptable. What we certainly felt more at ease for sure was that Elvis for the occasion, failing to dye their hair in time, wore a short skirt complete with purple and black piece and amphibians that made her almost be a component a serious group. Jamie was not even bad, in fact it was very indie rock, really cute with his tie loosened and his shirt under the jacket with the sleeves rolled up. While I ...



"What an idiot I do." I pointed the finger at me in the middle of the picture that I held in my hands.
"Not true, Mon. I like it. "Jamie exclaimed at my side, always too good.
"In the middle I had to be?" I complained.
"Ask the leader for once, blonde." Elvira passed behind me. "Anyway you have been very good! I like the logo. Bella found the star of the center. "
" Thank you, Elly! I'm glad you like it. Now we have to focus a lot on what to play. I get the Campri stomach at the thought. Respirazioneeee ... "espirai inhaled and strong.
"Jamie brings a pillow for our pregnant woman!" Elvira laughed, thrilled more than ever.

I felt terribly agitated in the days following. I told Jack about our first concert with such enthusiasm that he had intended to come more often from I try to help me.
One afternoon, while Jamie and Elvira had a lesson, we found ourselves alone in the room.
After trying some agreements we take a break.
Jack pulled out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter from custiodia pocket of the guitar. He opened with I care and I put the cigarette on his lips and access. I never saw smoke, but made him look at the James Dean that was not bad at all.
"Do you smoke?" I asked, surprised by his unusual gesture.
"Oh, yes, sometimes a ... To relieve tension, I'm a bit tired and nervous ultimalmente ... Does it bother you? "Puffed and threw out dense smoke.
"No, no, God forbid ... Not only did I never saw it ... "
" I will be lung cancer, believe me. "He smiled and went to open the window to throw the ashes. He leaned down
all'implificatore of Elvira, the one closest to the window, and continued to smoke without saying a word.



He threw his cigarette out the window nearly in half with a decisive gesture and pulled from his pants pocket a small metal box inside with three or maybe four small pads of different colors with strange symbols on the surface. He took one, the blue one with a flash carved above.
"MDMA, honey, you want one?" ingiottì closing his eyes to savor it better.
"MDMA? MetilDiossiMetaAnfetamina? But Ecstasy is the active ..." I could not believe of what could be. The synthetic drug more dangerous and it was on the market.
"I know a lot, honey ... So you want it or not?" His tone changed dramatically, almost annoyed.
"I did not know that ..." I pointed to the box which reflected the rays of the sun entered the window, making it seem a little Sgrigna treasures. Treasures that I did not like at all and do not covet.
"Come, do not fall from the clouds as usual, take it all ... Especially before playing, but also during the day is a blast." his eyes narrowed suddenly.
"I've never taken and I always played very well," I said with a firm tone.
'Well, it is not a great guitarist, you're famous. "
was a stab in the back, sgranai eyes in disbelief and began to deteriorate.
"Jack, you're telling me that I suck?"
"But you do not have to worry about this, you and your friends are cunts will not have big problems playing around. Continue with short skirts and tight dresses and go forward. Jamie is a talented guitarist, he saves you musically. Get me an 'another cigarette? "He said, indicating the package sticking out of pocket guitar case, without even realizing the meanness that he had just uttered.
" Blame yourself! You just said that I suck! "I raised my voice without fear, outraged by such behavior from him that I would never have expected.
" No, I made you a compliment ... I told you that you pussy, what the hell do you want? "Frowned as if it were the most normal thing in the world, as if he had not insulted in any case" Come on, come here! "Continued when he saw that I had retreated a step. No longer recognizes him, in front of me that was not Jack. My Jack was not. I was denying to myself that this was my boy, that boy that made my heart beat and was always kind to me.
reached for it myself, but drew back sharply.
"Do not touch me, Jack, I'm not going! You're completely done! How many pills have you done before?" I snapped.
"Do not make me the lecture! You're not my mother, okay?" growled. No, it was not him, I kept repeating in my head.
"But you've drunk the brain, you'd better go." I looked down I kept nailed to his so far. I could not watch it.
"Come on, if you want to tell you that you're good to play I'm telling you, okay? "again that tone that simulated the sweetness, but that had nothing sweet, it was more a vicious tone that made me shudder. He walked with his arms stretched out towards me to embrace "Even if you have more good in bed, of course!" He grinned.



"Enough, go away! Fair enough ... "I pointed to the door without a look at him shyly.
" Not even a kiss? "Took me by the wrist, pushing towards the wall almost violently, his eyes almost invisible make it look like a wild beast. For the first time I really scared him, he was stoned done .... I swallowed hard. I tried to wriggle, but it was useless: he was too strong.



I took the other wrist too pressing to the wall and came to my face.
I kissed him. A kiss numb, lips that touched without any emotion. Nothing I did not hear anything except a sense of disgust. I hated him, hated him at that moment to die for what I had said, for what I was doing, but I could not do without him.



"Jack, I do not feel well ... And 'I'd better go to my room to rest a bit. "I managed to say only that when he parted from my lips.
" I'm going too, right? "
"No. .. That is ... " I corrected myself, almost trembling, frightened "I'd rather be alone for a while, I need to sleep. Call me tonight, okay? "Whispered the piano, I missed the voice in my throat.
I was still keeping pressed against the wall with no possibility of escape. The profile touches my neck, my breath smell like a predator with his victim.
"I want you ..." whispered in my ear.
"Really, Jack ..." hardly restrain the tears. It was not him. He was not so, I tried to head Ripert growing to cancel any other emotion, every other thought.
let go, looking for a second.
"Um ... Ok, I'll go somewhere else. It feels. "And went out like that, without another word leaving me still scared and in disbelief to what I saw and what I had said. I could not believe that he really thought this of me: a silly little girl unable to play, which would be successful only because he had a pretty face.



As soon as the shadow disappeared collapsed on the floor.
votuto stop him despite what I tried, but it was as if something held me pinned to the ground. It was as if someone had sewn lips. Not a word. None.
courses in my room trying not to be seen by anyone, but almost scontrai Jamie.



"Hey, Lu .."
I reached the door handle of my room that showed no signs of opening, leaving me in tears, became entangled in front of Jamie.
"Hey, Mon!"
"Let me in please." I pushed with all my strength, but the damn door was still locked.
"Are you crying?"
"No. .." I wiped my face from the tears down my cheek.
"Yeah, right ... What is it? "
" Nothing ... Really. "The door finally splancò and the shot made a strong run into the bathroom wall. I jumped.
"Safe?"
No, I was not sure at all. Titubai.
"I had an argument with Jack." I breathed for breath, I said that I had almost helped "If you really want to know ... Both of you come to my room before it gets Elvira and hear everything. It would crush in five minutes ... "I would have told you too, but with due calm. Elvira was the impulsive would go head to look in the world.
explained part of the story, avoiding some detail, as if telling us they could not be erased. I avoided saying what he had rammed the wall and I had kissed but did not want. Not used it in his own words, raw and offensive, as if I wanted to defend. Or maybe I was just defending myself from the trial of Jamie, I knew that I was supposed to go like that, rebel, throw him away, but the love I felt for Jack had kept making me lose my dignity. I was dying inside.
"I did not know that he had put too tangled up to ... Incredible. "Jamie replied to my story omitted" It 's known for being moody, but this way ... Crazy ... Did it hurt? "She asks in alarm.
"No. .." I whispered, wiping a tear that escaped my cheek, I knew I was lying. I had done wrong, yes, in every possible way. I smiled to reassure him that everything was ok, and I lied again, would not do anything, he hugged me tight.
For a second it was as if the infinite mind had been freed of the bad thoughts. Mental note to myself to tell him the whole story without omissions as soon as I had recovered from that blow to the stomach so hard.
"Why all the boys are not like you Jamie?! You are the prince, "I joked. I let myself go into a silent cry in the arms of Jamie, was a blessing to find it right at that moment.



"This is new!" Laughed stroking my hair "I'll take it as a compliment." Her breath made me shiver. It was the most special friend in the world and, I believe that was the providence to ensure that he was there at that time.
would pass all it was just a moment, I tried to convince me there was a concert to prepare, things would have adjusted. I was not entirely convinced, but I tried to believe the same.

Grecian Wedding Invitation

Broken Doll

"The Heart Asks Pleasure First Michael Nyman



I could not believe my eyes. In the silence of the little sobbing, in a long time since I knew I could never imagine what made her so sad. Elvira was not crying, he never did.



As soon as I saw her tears with her shirt sleeve, futile attempt to not show in that state.
"Elly, what is it? What happened?" accuciandomi whispered close to her.
"Nothing, do not worry." His eyes swollen and red and his voice trembling.
"I do not have to worry about?" If you tell me so sure I care. Then you look how small. " I passed a handkerchief and wiped his best trick soft cast on his cheeks.
"The truth is that ..." he paused for a moment torturing her hair "What ..." he went "Oh, man ... I can not believe that I made peck ..."
"But believe us ..." the incalzai sitting down in front of her, "Did you think I would not have found or that I would not have noticed?" I used a firm tone, perhaps a little abrupt, but I wanted to know what had upset.



"What you realize everything is always me." He tried to smile through her tears.
"Come on, Elly, just tell me what happens ... Then if you do not want to talk about ... No matter ... Do not make an effort. "But no one knew what I wanted to break his thoughts and know what troubled her.
He looked away from my hand affixed by twisting, the handkerchief tortured in his hands.
"Today is the anniversary of the death of my mother." He hissed. A slight gust of wind, a handful of words that breaks my heart.
"I'm sorry ..." I was only able to say, without words. The pain is in the eyes of Elvira. "Can I help you? Anything ... "



" I do not worry, it's embarrassing enough that you see me like this. "Rest your eyes on me.
"But come on, you're kidding! You know I do not care to see you cry ... See you weak. "I corrected, sweet tone.
She bit her lip.
"" I called my father last night. "Brief pause." I called. I told him if he went to the cemetery today and 'Dear, I'm busy, I'll deliver the flowers'. - Busy doing what? "I asked." Gesticulated frantic, holding then his hands on his head. "To take the sun with that ... I was detained. I wanted so much to say Troy, but something stopped me. 'No, Elvira, work commitments, I'm sorry'. At that point I reattach it. I came to a point where it bothers me even hear his voice. "He rubbed his eyes still moist, but firmer than before.
" was looking at how beautiful she was ... Even during his illness. "It embraced the knees, gathering in a small space, as if to disappear "He was my eyes, the same color, same eyes ... It was delicate and sweet, like her a lot ... physically ..."
"Shortly before he became ill he had filed for divorce. He had found another. I knew because I had seen them. But I was 12, I could do? When my mother was diagnosed with a disease he felt guilty and not divorced, but continued to stay with the other woman. While she was ill he was treated by the great doctors to feel better, she was not ever miss anything, but it was clear that he did only because he felt a bastard.
E 'was an agony lasted 4 years. The 4 years of my life long and empty. He never spoke more practically and when he did it was cold. It was as if she were afraid of me. And you know why? I am sure, had a fotuttissima afraid to talk to his daughter because he seemed to talk to her wife who was dying in a damn hospital bed. "More tears flowed from his eyes, out of control.



"During the years of the disease, my mom always found the strength to cuddle. Even just before he left he hugged me. He told me to be strong and that he would never go out of my life, I would always be protected wherever she went. "He picked up his face in his hands a moment before continuing.
"I miss him. I miss everything about her, you know? And he? Do not even go to the cemetery to see the anniversary of his death. E 'atrocious, I can not forgive him. "
took a deep breath, always gathering in a corner.
"You can not imagine the day of the funeral. It 'was the saddest day of my life. I did not sleep for days, I kept seeing her in the coffin, motionless and cold and pale. I was hoping to wake up and hugged me again. I felt alone in the midst of a thousand people and it all seems so fake, so mean to me. "
" I was always a strange girl, but never bad or wrong, I like music, I like dying my hair, having fun .. . Even at the time I was weird ... The appearance deceives always friends and family saw me as a sort of mostro.Avranno also thought that I take drugs, anything like that. Only you understand me ... Only you ... "



sighed.
"I had an adolescence absurd." Hardly a smile between the tears. "Yeah ... I mean .. It 's weird ... I was well placed in high school, but I was in a hole in everything I did, a puppet without a soul acting without thinking. For example, to go out with boys, and Credem I've had too many, never any serious history. ... Well I ', I still ... Fear of tie. "
" Lu, I'm afraid of losing someone I love again, which I love and which would give my own life for her. "If Elvira had been would have died instead of her mother, I was convinced.
" You know, the first time I saw you you were so pretty ... And embarrassed. " She smiled sweetly.
"Eh?" I blushed slightly.
"Yes, you were funny ... You looked so sweet. I thought I wanted to be your friend ..."
The same thing that I thought ...
"But with you I hesitated at first, I was not sure ... Then I jumped. I had nothing to lose. I was used to the idea that I would be left alone for the rest of my life. .. At the end . Even with the friends I've always had bad luck, you know? In high school I had a friend that I was tied up. Her name was Nicole. We set up a group, we had many things in common. quarreled furiously one day. You know why? Drop who had made the camel's back was that I had cheated the boy. Not that I care so much about him, but she was fucking me for the umpteenth time. You know, it seemed everything I wanted and I did not scruple to steal everything that seemed to make me happy, I found out later, unfortunately ... So she lost. "
" But Anyway ... .. I sometimes go to him to patch up relations with my father, that's why I still do keep him, but I think the feeling is mutual. I hate, I know you see. Meet my desire to keep me good, not to me complain, to keep me quiet ... And the best part is that I will ever hear say many words. I just want it more closely, in fact. .. "he stopped a moment, who knows how many thoughts were going through for the head.
"Ok, I'm talking nonsense, I do not know what I'm saying ..."
interrupted, I understood very well, was all too clear.
"Elly ... It 's all right. Really. "I had moved so much that I wanted to cry there with her, hug, but I only take her hands.
"Hey, what's going on here?" we had not even noticed that the door of the closet was open and Jamie was entered.



"A meeting of tears ... Want to join?" Elvira said, laughing through her tears.
"Come on, make me worry." Serio.



"Ah, I'm not going to redo everything my monologue ... "could pretend that all was well, when in fact she was screaming inside. I got up and went to Jamie.



"Jamie, would you like to go for a little hike today? They range from the florist, take a nice bunch of flowers. Elly his selection, of course. Then go to the cemetery to visit his mom, ok? Take a taxi, does not take long. "Intervene I hope that Jamie plucked.
Jamie realized the situation and just nodded, smiling softly.



"And you know what?" I continued, "Now begins a new semester. You know what we do? We will try to make us conscious as a group, ok? Maybe we suck at first, but it does not matter. Do not play just for fun inside a room, beat us and we will get some results. There were? But we need our bass player is not that best friend to do it. "I turned to Elvira, his eyes now dry and look grateful.
"Yeah ... Elly, we are a group, no? "Added Jamie.
"If I may say so ..." he smiled he had just paid almost no tears "I love you." He whispered with his head down and the air serene.
hugged her strong, deserved all the happiness in this world my sad little doll.
"Oh, come on we are doing? Seem pussy! Bleah! "Laughed beaming now. He stood up suddenly, his feet ready to shoot.
"Up, lazy, what are you still doing here! Come on! Without me this group does not make sense to exist! "
Jamie and I exchanged a look that was worth a thousand words ... He smiled again, as before. Beaming.
I think, for the first time in a long time, for a moment, our beautiful doll she felt less alone. And the promise I had made would be kept, we had to carry on with all our might that small dream and we could make it. At any cost.