Friday, March 21, 2008

What Color Tie With Pink Shirt

Hopes and Illusions

Ok, I would say that for these two days I've bored you enough. XD
I catch up with weekly updates, as this I had practically already written more than half time ago.
I added a midi for each episode with the song I hear as I write. If you want aacoltare the soundtrack as you read just press Play ...
XD Okay, enough, to be home sick means is very bad ... . _. "

Happy reading!






"Mr. Self Destruct" NIN


During the holidays it does not snow and I felt the nostalgia, it was nice to get lost listening to the silence produced by the soft white coat, but all survived to that lack.
few days after the holidays ended I met Jack, if possible even better than usual, and I realized what I liked, what attracted me and I began to feel very much more to him. Hours and hours trying to prepare for the best, hands sweaty and my stomach in turmoil, almost worse than the first times I had seen him. Berci
We went to a cafe and told me everything he had done. Seemed to have fun much without me. It did not seem particularly upset that I was not with him, but he promised that next time I might come if I wanted. After all, I thought we were together so recently that it was normal not run my holidays together, it was just my impression. Evidently I was burning just a little bit that she did all those things without me. I tried to ignore it and let me pass the paranoia. I would have shown too heavy if I complained too much and I did not want stupid discussions went so well. He treated me well, it was sweet, bright, and I believe not only in my eyes. It was full of friends, was a popular guy and the fact that his girlfriend made me proud as anyone. A queen, made me feel like a queen.

I went home with his head completely in the ball, the effect that Jack was on me was similar to the effect of a drug addiction not only gave, but the effects were in the true sense of the word, amazing. Find
Jamie bored with turning the TV channels which as usual did not offer anything good.
"What a boring afternoon, is not it, Jamie?" Greeted him.
"Hey, hello, Lu! Yes, very depressing ... "I settled on the couch next to him" You're out with Jack this afternoon? "



" Yeah, sure ... "
" You see! " not held back a chuckle, noting my face lost in the void was obviously easier than I thought.
"Yes, I realize ..." I blushed violently before changing the subject "Where is Elvis?" I asked, not seeing it run like a tornado for the dorm.
"It 's output with that of the blond party, remember?"
"Wow!" Exclaimed in wonder, Elvira who was dating a guy for so long? It was a novelty.
"It looks like a relationship, eh?"
No, Elvis was not the type. Above all, I had never said anything special about this guy, if it was something important he would talk as an exceptional event. Elly never did anything for nothing, hiding something.
"How serious? Are you kidding? Elvira? Nope, I do not think. It does not seem particularly taken. I do not know, but there is something underneath. "
Jamie shook her head smiling," Strange, when Elvira does something there's always something, is disturbing, but now beginning to get used to. "Elvira
Waiting for us to have presented his findings began to to talk about this and that. He was always nice to talk to Jamie. It was very relaxing, with him you could really talk about everything with no problems. A good listener who always left a little but reveal their moods. Only if you looked good in eyes could see if he was happy, sad, upset. He did not want anything in exchange for Jamie. It was a sort of guardian angel.
"So, little Jamie? How's the Cheer? "I settled on the side of the sofa to get it perfectly in front of me, as he stared at me wide-eyed and about to turn red in the face. I also liked to embarrass him, it was common knowledge that girls do not talk about was his forte.
"Mary ...?" asked and was at that point that something changed in its look. A mix of bitterness and despair. Maybe it was just my impression.
"Yes, Mary ... Do you have a girl who is so called. "I tried to joke Abbadon the position taken shortly before, because I did not think the case does not put his finger on the ever if things had not gone to the best among them. "It 's something wrong?" I asked worried.
chuckled without fun, running a hand over his face "No, nothing special. It seems to me only ... Cold toward me. "
" Cold? "
" Yes, when I talk to always seems that he is in the clouds. Sometimes you forget to call me ... It seems less grip, here. "
" Have you tried talking to her? "Mary did not know at all, had not done much to become your friend, but ... It seemed that we would avoid so I did not know if that was the typical behavior of Mary, or, actually, there was something wrong.
"Yeah .. I tried. He told me that I'm paranoid so I had to give up the towel, I had to do?" shrugged.



"You're so good, Jamie." I smiled.
"Yeah, I think I also ... The fact is that I want her, makes me feel really paranoid, maybe ... "he sighed," I just hope it is a period. "
" Sure, you'll see that everything will reset. "The places his hand on his shoulder," you will surely paranoid. "I joked and he smiled back, laughing shyly. I really hope so for him, did not deserve to suffer.
We remained silent a second, he lost in a thousand thoughts, before they broke again.
"And you, Lu? What about Jack? "Always with her sweet smile that infuse warmth and serenity.



"A party that lost are cooked? Nothing would say "I laughed almost hysterically. I thought just spent the afternoon and I felt invaded by happiness.
"You know, when you're together I was very surprised." Always the tone sweet and almost brotherly.
"Really? How come? "
" It looks really changed my dear Jack. "
" Changed? "
" Yeah .. In high school it was awful! "
I was really curious, not I was never going to rummage into the past of Jack. Not much, in fact. A little bit because I did not want to seem too urgent, a bit because I thought I was hurt in some way, but now I was damn curious.
"Really? Tell me! "I restrained myself, my request was emitted from my lips at the speed of light. I did not bother even to talk about it with Jamie, the bottom was a friend, he never said anything to Jack. He enjoyed himself to gossip, as it does not give to see.
Jamie's face broke into a broad smile.
'Well, it was one of the classic types who did not want a serious story. He used a little women. "
" Ok, let's go slowly. He was a womanizer? "My reaction touched the psychopath and compulsive maniac, but when it came to Jack ... I
posizionai crossing his legs in front of Jamie, not a word was not to escape me.
'Well, not to fret, but ... Yes, He had a lot of girls. And he obviously we tread in the hand. He would go out at night and they brought home at least one. All the girls drooling behind in high school, I told you that was very popular. He has charm. He had more success giocari of the football team. Really ... "he repeated, seeing wide-eyed and incredulous. "And when I heard that ... Did you ... "pause, snapped his fingers as if he did not arrive the right word to use, "You were ..." I understood everything. The usual so Jamie, and his discourses on sex did not go well together.
"Come on, Jamie, say ..." I sighed holding back laughter.
"Did you ... Be ', in other words you understand ... "
" How are you sir, Jamie ... "
" Well ... "his face was completely red now and extremely funny" and then when you told me you had not called ... I felt guilty, I should tell you. But you were so busy that I did not take you down ... "
" Jamie "I froze" who cares? There 's been good, right? "
" Indeed! I was really happy when I saw you together. Seems to have changed, as I said. One can see that it was just infatuated, Mon! "
" E 'fell into my trap! "Joked assuming an evil grin, mimicking more like Elvira.
"Yes, I see you're just his type, right?" He said softly.
"I hope so ... Well, right now if he were the shit, somehow it breaks my heart. "I sighed, now lost in the usual blank expression.



"Yeah ... Then Elvira would kill him ... I would just fill the barrel. "
" I do not suppose so violent, "laughed crystalline, more for the happiness than anything else.
"What are you laughing?! Do not believe me?! Just looks like pesto battery. "
" You're right ... There is no doubt. "
" And everyone who hurt my little Lu is intended to take the rap on the head drum. Including Jack! "Both laughed and then I wrapped her shoulders with a braccio.Mi was a shiver down my spine. I felt as if nothing could hurt me.


At that moment came running to lose breath Elvira. He seemed to have all ten kilometers of trail running, probably had climbed the stairs three steps at a time.



"What is it?" Screamed in chorus me and Jamie.
He tried to talk but not walked out over big sigh interrupted by vowels and consonants, the tongue was almost knotting.
"Elly, what the hell language are you talking about?" Jamie held no more laughter.
"Jamie, was out of breath!" I pointed out, if he had not yet understood.
"Sit down, Elly, and return," the seat next to me and I settled down, holding her hand on his chest to stop the crazy beat of the heart. What on earth could be so urgent to be run that way?
spent ten minutes and three glasses of good water, then handed her the trouble.
"So ... Oh, I going to be a heart attack. Cabbage. So, I said ... You know the blond of the party? Paul? Pier? PierPaolo? "He put a hand to his chin" Boh ... Okay'..." continued to gesticulate, was not an especially important apparently.
"Luckily, it often!" I said with a chuckle.
"Well ..." snorted "You know ... We found an overlap! None of that, eh ... Ma .. Play in local real! "He yelled.
slightly ajar lips with an expression between surprised and delighted. Was there a chance to perform in anything but a narrow and dusty room?!
"Come on, shoot everything! I want details! "Exclaimed Jamie, what amazed me.
"So ... Mr. Biondononmiricordobenecometichiami knows very well the owner of a room just outside the city. It 's a little local esisbiscono in which local small groups. With a little luck and talent some of these are slowly emerging in the underground scene. Now, Mr. biondinoblabla had promised me he would ask this guy, speaking well of us, if you could let us play there. I have not I told you anything before for the simple fact that there was nothing for sure. But now it seems that the type has been accepted and then next Saturday playing live !!!!"
"Elly, I will adooooooroooooo !!!!" I jumped at the neck without worrying about do not choke.
"Very Big! This explains everything that interest to the Pier. "Even Jamie was the picture of felictà" Why is it called Pier. "
" Wow! I went next door, Jamie, eh! "Seraphic smile, as if it was normal not to remember the name of the guy you go out.
"Oh, almost forgot ... We need photos. "He said with no carelessness, the same seraphic smile.
"What picture? Type? "I was quite surprised.
"A kind of photo shoot. The guy in the room I do not think it was quite normal: he wants a photo of every band that plays there. Rocker exalted! "Shook his head" I believe to do it just to get in the rare case that the group is successful. Sick! Anyway just only a picture with our name. A group photo with a logo, in fact. "



" A logo? "I said worried." Where the hell you find it ... Wait ... I'll do it Jamie. And 'good with computers. "Of course it was good, I was his field.
"Ok, girls, perfect, I think I can ... But the photos real? "



" I could change the color of hair. "It seemed really thoughtful.
" Very interesting. Always the same. I mean the place. The background. Poses! "
" Jamie, do not worry. We will do a simple thing. You'll see, I have some ideas. "And when did Elvis had not already figured everything?
"We must quickly though. This Saturday is one of ... 10 days! "Jamie came back and really really worried.
"You, Jamie, I put forward, you know?" Waved his hands on his hips.
"I am restless, Elly!"'s Eyes widened.



"I have to slap?" Raised a hand "Trust and nothing else." And he pointed his finger across his chest.

The next day, after class, Elvira took us in the park on campus, and there we took lots of photos with the car Automatic Jamie.
After a thousand photos and a thousand proofs of logos the result was a nice picture of us against a crumbling wall in impromptu rock star poses and a sign with our name in square characters and jagged profile with a bright red star in the center. Not much, but it was still acceptable. What we certainly felt more at ease for sure was that Elvis for the occasion, failing to dye their hair in time, wore a short skirt complete with purple and black piece and amphibians that made her almost be a component a serious group. Jamie was not even bad, in fact it was very indie rock, really cute with his tie loosened and his shirt under the jacket with the sleeves rolled up. While I ...



"What an idiot I do." I pointed the finger at me in the middle of the picture that I held in my hands.
"Not true, Mon. I like it. "Jamie exclaimed at my side, always too good.
"In the middle I had to be?" I complained.
"Ask the leader for once, blonde." Elvira passed behind me. "Anyway you have been very good! I like the logo. Bella found the star of the center. "
" Thank you, Elly! I'm glad you like it. Now we have to focus a lot on what to play. I get the Campri stomach at the thought. Respirazioneeee ... "espirai inhaled and strong.
"Jamie brings a pillow for our pregnant woman!" Elvira laughed, thrilled more than ever.

I felt terribly agitated in the days following. I told Jack about our first concert with such enthusiasm that he had intended to come more often from I try to help me.
One afternoon, while Jamie and Elvira had a lesson, we found ourselves alone in the room.
After trying some agreements we take a break.
Jack pulled out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter from custiodia pocket of the guitar. He opened with I care and I put the cigarette on his lips and access. I never saw smoke, but made him look at the James Dean that was not bad at all.
"Do you smoke?" I asked, surprised by his unusual gesture.
"Oh, yes, sometimes a ... To relieve tension, I'm a bit tired and nervous ultimalmente ... Does it bother you? "Puffed and threw out dense smoke.
"No, no, God forbid ... Not only did I never saw it ... "
" I will be lung cancer, believe me. "He smiled and went to open the window to throw the ashes. He leaned down
all'implificatore of Elvira, the one closest to the window, and continued to smoke without saying a word.



He threw his cigarette out the window nearly in half with a decisive gesture and pulled from his pants pocket a small metal box inside with three or maybe four small pads of different colors with strange symbols on the surface. He took one, the blue one with a flash carved above.
"MDMA, honey, you want one?" ingiottì closing his eyes to savor it better.
"MDMA? MetilDiossiMetaAnfetamina? But Ecstasy is the active ..." I could not believe of what could be. The synthetic drug more dangerous and it was on the market.
"I know a lot, honey ... So you want it or not?" His tone changed dramatically, almost annoyed.
"I did not know that ..." I pointed to the box which reflected the rays of the sun entered the window, making it seem a little Sgrigna treasures. Treasures that I did not like at all and do not covet.
"Come, do not fall from the clouds as usual, take it all ... Especially before playing, but also during the day is a blast." his eyes narrowed suddenly.
"I've never taken and I always played very well," I said with a firm tone.
'Well, it is not a great guitarist, you're famous. "
was a stab in the back, sgranai eyes in disbelief and began to deteriorate.
"Jack, you're telling me that I suck?"
"But you do not have to worry about this, you and your friends are cunts will not have big problems playing around. Continue with short skirts and tight dresses and go forward. Jamie is a talented guitarist, he saves you musically. Get me an 'another cigarette? "He said, indicating the package sticking out of pocket guitar case, without even realizing the meanness that he had just uttered.
" Blame yourself! You just said that I suck! "I raised my voice without fear, outraged by such behavior from him that I would never have expected.
" No, I made you a compliment ... I told you that you pussy, what the hell do you want? "Frowned as if it were the most normal thing in the world, as if he had not insulted in any case" Come on, come here! "Continued when he saw that I had retreated a step. No longer recognizes him, in front of me that was not Jack. My Jack was not. I was denying to myself that this was my boy, that boy that made my heart beat and was always kind to me.
reached for it myself, but drew back sharply.
"Do not touch me, Jack, I'm not going! You're completely done! How many pills have you done before?" I snapped.
"Do not make me the lecture! You're not my mother, okay?" growled. No, it was not him, I kept repeating in my head.
"But you've drunk the brain, you'd better go." I looked down I kept nailed to his so far. I could not watch it.
"Come on, if you want to tell you that you're good to play I'm telling you, okay? "again that tone that simulated the sweetness, but that had nothing sweet, it was more a vicious tone that made me shudder. He walked with his arms stretched out towards me to embrace "Even if you have more good in bed, of course!" He grinned.



"Enough, go away! Fair enough ... "I pointed to the door without a look at him shyly.
" Not even a kiss? "Took me by the wrist, pushing towards the wall almost violently, his eyes almost invisible make it look like a wild beast. For the first time I really scared him, he was stoned done .... I swallowed hard. I tried to wriggle, but it was useless: he was too strong.



I took the other wrist too pressing to the wall and came to my face.
I kissed him. A kiss numb, lips that touched without any emotion. Nothing I did not hear anything except a sense of disgust. I hated him, hated him at that moment to die for what I had said, for what I was doing, but I could not do without him.



"Jack, I do not feel well ... And 'I'd better go to my room to rest a bit. "I managed to say only that when he parted from my lips.
" I'm going too, right? "
"No. .. That is ... " I corrected myself, almost trembling, frightened "I'd rather be alone for a while, I need to sleep. Call me tonight, okay? "Whispered the piano, I missed the voice in my throat.
I was still keeping pressed against the wall with no possibility of escape. The profile touches my neck, my breath smell like a predator with his victim.
"I want you ..." whispered in my ear.
"Really, Jack ..." hardly restrain the tears. It was not him. He was not so, I tried to head Ripert growing to cancel any other emotion, every other thought.
let go, looking for a second.
"Um ... Ok, I'll go somewhere else. It feels. "And went out like that, without another word leaving me still scared and in disbelief to what I saw and what I had said. I could not believe that he really thought this of me: a silly little girl unable to play, which would be successful only because he had a pretty face.



As soon as the shadow disappeared collapsed on the floor.
votuto stop him despite what I tried, but it was as if something held me pinned to the ground. It was as if someone had sewn lips. Not a word. None.
courses in my room trying not to be seen by anyone, but almost scontrai Jamie.



"Hey, Lu .."
I reached the door handle of my room that showed no signs of opening, leaving me in tears, became entangled in front of Jamie.
"Hey, Mon!"
"Let me in please." I pushed with all my strength, but the damn door was still locked.
"Are you crying?"
"No. .." I wiped my face from the tears down my cheek.
"Yeah, right ... What is it? "
" Nothing ... Really. "The door finally splancò and the shot made a strong run into the bathroom wall. I jumped.
"Safe?"
No, I was not sure at all. Titubai.
"I had an argument with Jack." I breathed for breath, I said that I had almost helped "If you really want to know ... Both of you come to my room before it gets Elvira and hear everything. It would crush in five minutes ... "I would have told you too, but with due calm. Elvira was the impulsive would go head to look in the world.
explained part of the story, avoiding some detail, as if telling us they could not be erased. I avoided saying what he had rammed the wall and I had kissed but did not want. Not used it in his own words, raw and offensive, as if I wanted to defend. Or maybe I was just defending myself from the trial of Jamie, I knew that I was supposed to go like that, rebel, throw him away, but the love I felt for Jack had kept making me lose my dignity. I was dying inside.
"I did not know that he had put too tangled up to ... Incredible. "Jamie replied to my story omitted" It 's known for being moody, but this way ... Crazy ... Did it hurt? "She asks in alarm.
"No. .." I whispered, wiping a tear that escaped my cheek, I knew I was lying. I had done wrong, yes, in every possible way. I smiled to reassure him that everything was ok, and I lied again, would not do anything, he hugged me tight.
For a second it was as if the infinite mind had been freed of the bad thoughts. Mental note to myself to tell him the whole story without omissions as soon as I had recovered from that blow to the stomach so hard.
"Why all the boys are not like you Jamie?! You are the prince, "I joked. I let myself go into a silent cry in the arms of Jamie, was a blessing to find it right at that moment.



"This is new!" Laughed stroking my hair "I'll take it as a compliment." Her breath made me shiver. It was the most special friend in the world and, I believe that was the providence to ensure that he was there at that time.
would pass all it was just a moment, I tried to convince me there was a concert to prepare, things would have adjusted. I was not entirely convinced, but I tried to believe the same.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Grecian Wedding Invitation

Broken Doll






"The Heart Asks Pleasure First Michael Nyman



I could not believe my eyes. In the silence of the little sobbing, in a long time since I knew I could never imagine what made her so sad. Elvira was not crying, he never did.



As soon as I saw her tears with her shirt sleeve, futile attempt to not show in that state.
"Elly, what is it? What happened?" accuciandomi whispered close to her.
"Nothing, do not worry." His eyes swollen and red and his voice trembling.
"I do not have to worry about?" If you tell me so sure I care. Then you look how small. " I passed a handkerchief and wiped his best trick soft cast on his cheeks.
"The truth is that ..." he paused for a moment torturing her hair "What ..." he went "Oh, man ... I can not believe that I made peck ..."
"But believe us ..." the incalzai sitting down in front of her, "Did you think I would not have found or that I would not have noticed?" I used a firm tone, perhaps a little abrupt, but I wanted to know what had upset.



"What you realize everything is always me." He tried to smile through her tears.
"Come on, Elly, just tell me what happens ... Then if you do not want to talk about ... No matter ... Do not make an effort. "But no one knew what I wanted to break his thoughts and know what troubled her.
He looked away from my hand affixed by twisting, the handkerchief tortured in his hands.
"Today is the anniversary of the death of my mother." He hissed. A slight gust of wind, a handful of words that breaks my heart.
"I'm sorry ..." I was only able to say, without words. The pain is in the eyes of Elvira. "Can I help you? Anything ... "



" I do not worry, it's embarrassing enough that you see me like this. "Rest your eyes on me.
"But come on, you're kidding! You know I do not care to see you cry ... See you weak. "I corrected, sweet tone.
She bit her lip.
"" I called my father last night. "Brief pause." I called. I told him if he went to the cemetery today and 'Dear, I'm busy, I'll deliver the flowers'. - Busy doing what? "I asked." Gesticulated frantic, holding then his hands on his head. "To take the sun with that ... I was detained. I wanted so much to say Troy, but something stopped me. 'No, Elvira, work commitments, I'm sorry'. At that point I reattach it. I came to a point where it bothers me even hear his voice. "He rubbed his eyes still moist, but firmer than before.
" was looking at how beautiful she was ... Even during his illness. "It embraced the knees, gathering in a small space, as if to disappear "He was my eyes, the same color, same eyes ... It was delicate and sweet, like her a lot ... physically ..."
"Shortly before he became ill he had filed for divorce. He had found another. I knew because I had seen them. But I was 12, I could do? When my mother was diagnosed with a disease he felt guilty and not divorced, but continued to stay with the other woman. While she was ill he was treated by the great doctors to feel better, she was not ever miss anything, but it was clear that he did only because he felt a bastard.
E 'was an agony lasted 4 years. The 4 years of my life long and empty. He never spoke more practically and when he did it was cold. It was as if she were afraid of me. And you know why? I am sure, had a fotuttissima afraid to talk to his daughter because he seemed to talk to her wife who was dying in a damn hospital bed. "More tears flowed from his eyes, out of control.



"During the years of the disease, my mom always found the strength to cuddle. Even just before he left he hugged me. He told me to be strong and that he would never go out of my life, I would always be protected wherever she went. "He picked up his face in his hands a moment before continuing.
"I miss him. I miss everything about her, you know? And he? Do not even go to the cemetery to see the anniversary of his death. E 'atrocious, I can not forgive him. "
took a deep breath, always gathering in a corner.
"You can not imagine the day of the funeral. It 'was the saddest day of my life. I did not sleep for days, I kept seeing her in the coffin, motionless and cold and pale. I was hoping to wake up and hugged me again. I felt alone in the midst of a thousand people and it all seems so fake, so mean to me. "
" I was always a strange girl, but never bad or wrong, I like music, I like dying my hair, having fun .. . Even at the time I was weird ... The appearance deceives always friends and family saw me as a sort of mostro.Avranno also thought that I take drugs, anything like that. Only you understand me ... Only you ... "



sighed.
"I had an adolescence absurd." Hardly a smile between the tears. "Yeah ... I mean .. It 's weird ... I was well placed in high school, but I was in a hole in everything I did, a puppet without a soul acting without thinking. For example, to go out with boys, and Credem I've had too many, never any serious history. ... Well I ', I still ... Fear of tie. "
" Lu, I'm afraid of losing someone I love again, which I love and which would give my own life for her. "If Elvira had been would have died instead of her mother, I was convinced.
" You know, the first time I saw you you were so pretty ... And embarrassed. " She smiled sweetly.
"Eh?" I blushed slightly.
"Yes, you were funny ... You looked so sweet. I thought I wanted to be your friend ..."
The same thing that I thought ...
"But with you I hesitated at first, I was not sure ... Then I jumped. I had nothing to lose. I was used to the idea that I would be left alone for the rest of my life. .. At the end . Even with the friends I've always had bad luck, you know? In high school I had a friend that I was tied up. Her name was Nicole. We set up a group, we had many things in common. quarreled furiously one day. You know why? Drop who had made the camel's back was that I had cheated the boy. Not that I care so much about him, but she was fucking me for the umpteenth time. You know, it seemed everything I wanted and I did not scruple to steal everything that seemed to make me happy, I found out later, unfortunately ... So she lost. "
" But Anyway ... .. I sometimes go to him to patch up relations with my father, that's why I still do keep him, but I think the feeling is mutual. I hate, I know you see. Meet my desire to keep me good, not to me complain, to keep me quiet ... And the best part is that I will ever hear say many words. I just want it more closely, in fact. .. "he stopped a moment, who knows how many thoughts were going through for the head.
"Ok, I'm talking nonsense, I do not know what I'm saying ..."
interrupted, I understood very well, was all too clear.
"Elly ... It 's all right. Really. "I had moved so much that I wanted to cry there with her, hug, but I only take her hands.
"Hey, what's going on here?" we had not even noticed that the door of the closet was open and Jamie was entered.



"A meeting of tears ... Want to join?" Elvira said, laughing through her tears.
"Come on, make me worry." Serio.



"Ah, I'm not going to redo everything my monologue ... "could pretend that all was well, when in fact she was screaming inside. I got up and went to Jamie.



"Jamie, would you like to go for a little hike today? They range from the florist, take a nice bunch of flowers. Elly his selection, of course. Then go to the cemetery to visit his mom, ok? Take a taxi, does not take long. "Intervene I hope that Jamie plucked.
Jamie realized the situation and just nodded, smiling softly.



"And you know what?" I continued, "Now begins a new semester. You know what we do? We will try to make us conscious as a group, ok? Maybe we suck at first, but it does not matter. Do not play just for fun inside a room, beat us and we will get some results. There were? But we need our bass player is not that best friend to do it. "I turned to Elvira, his eyes now dry and look grateful.
"Yeah ... Elly, we are a group, no? "Added Jamie.
"If I may say so ..." he smiled he had just paid almost no tears "I love you." He whispered with his head down and the air serene.
hugged her strong, deserved all the happiness in this world my sad little doll.
"Oh, come on we are doing? Seem pussy! Bleah! "Laughed beaming now. He stood up suddenly, his feet ready to shoot.
"Up, lazy, what are you still doing here! Come on! Without me this group does not make sense to exist! "
Jamie and I exchanged a look that was worth a thousand words ... He smiled again, as before. Beaming.
I think, for the first time in a long time, for a moment, our beautiful doll she felt less alone. And the promise I had made would be kept, we had to carry on with all our might that small dream and we could make it. At any cost.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Why Women Like To Headscissor

Be my baby

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"Be my baby" Ronettes



The night we met I knew I needed you so
and if I had the chance I'd never let you go.
So won't you say you love me,
I'll make you so proud of me.
We'll make 'em turn their heads every place we go.
So won't you, please, BE MY BE MY BABY
be my little. baby MY ONE AND ONLY BABY
Say you'll be my darlin', BE MY BE MY BABY
be my baby now.Wha-oh-oh-oh.
I'll make you happy, baby, just wait and see.
For every kiss you give me I'll give you three.
Oh, since the day I saw you
I have been waiting for you.
You know I will adore you 'til eternity.




After a couple of covers I found myself singing this song, which reflected well the reality in front of the guy who more than anyone I had made my heart beat. I had no problem singing in front of others, but before him the heat increased alarmingly. His face red with embarrassment, but her voice did not tremble now more .. More than once our eyes met and I do not know how I had not dropped the guitar, every glance was a powerful tremor.
people enjoy, some squatting on the ground, some leaning against the wall with his arms folded and he ... Smiling, amused, moved with a grace and perfection that I had ever seen.
"Lu And now we will sing a song she wrote herself. Do not worry if the text does not make sense. When he wrote it was drunk. "Elvira intervened at the end of my declaration of love ... Not declared, referring to 'Cause I'm Awesome.
All burst into laughter, very contagious, and I let go too. It was a strange, wonderful feeling to sing and wiggle in front of a crowd of people who just wanted to have fun, there was no time for worries, for the ugly thoughts.
terms of sound and the little party moved downstairs. All in all it was not bad, but the evening still had to turn to term.
I found myself talking to some guys who compliments me and my singing ability, which hitherto had ignored and that still seemed still quite low, when I was pulling my arm.
"Hey, blonde, you were great! Congratulations ..." Jack smiled at me while still holding my arm. Once again I had called blonde and did not give me any trouble given him, but hear my name from his lips was definitely better.
"Come on, call me Lu ... Do not you already forgotten my name, right?" I looked mischievous, playing in front of people I had given a bit of security.
"Ah, no, of course, always remember the names of beautiful girls, more so if they play punk. Your name is Lucretia. "



consonant with that slight scratches, R in the middle of my name sounded like a growl, a snarl damn sexy.
I did not have time to think about how things were when he was making good distracted by some that they called me and ripped off. I stood there, motionless, like a fool to look at it, once again, from afar. The instinct led me to look around for a look friend, someone to talk to.
Elvira chatted animatedly with a blond pretty good, its probably a victim of the evening. Jamie, sitting on the couch, exchanging pleasantries with the cheer and Mary for a moment I envied them so much;



is dreamy without much thought, while I was there to think and think and think.
because I was so carried away by a boy? It was not possible, it was pathetic and stupid.
sighed stepping back a few steps until I found myself behind the wall, lowered my head and my blond hair streamed on her shoulders. I needed air.
I went downstairs to find themselves out of the dorm, I sat on the steps. Nobody would have noticed my absence.
I looked up into the sky watching every sparkle in the deep blue of the evening. It was a mess, a mess that I had much in love with the boy in a way so absurd that stopped me in anything I had to do. At the bottom of things, since my arrival on campus, they were practically perfect, why ruin my mood that way. How would I behave now? I rubbed my face buried in his hands and then put it there for a few minutes, when suddenly I heard footsteps behind me. I thought about someone that she was going and instead a familiar voice startled me.
"Hey, blonde ..." he paused "Lucrezia ... Where were you over? I've been looking, but you were gone." The fact that I had come to look made me happy, yeah, as if his heart had lightened in a second.
"Yeah ... Everyone was so committed and I came here. There is definitely more peaceful. "
" You're right. E 'in a nice area your dorm. And how did you get alienated in this way? "If he had the gift of reading thought he would have understood many things.
" I needed some air ... You know, too much emotion, "I sighed.
He said nothing, just smiled and sat down beside me.
"The first time you play in front of someone, though they are friends, it is always exciting ..." I nodded
following his every word Do not miss a syllable, turning to me.
"You chose a good name for your group. I like it. You've chosen you?" continued.
"No, no," laughed thinking back on the scene "It was Elvira. He chose her. It 's very imaginative."
"But where did it come from? On a starry night?" laughed in turn.
"Forget it. It 's a stupid story. Maybe one day I will tell you ... but I need guitar lessons?" occasionally dare I came out forcefully, I was amazed with myself for saying such nonsense.
"Mah .. Let's say you will never reach the level of the master ..." he joked wiggling his hand in the air and rolling her eyes. "If I had not realized the great teacher I am." She put her hand on his chest. The only answer I looked
interrogative.
"Ok, ok, I'm kidding." Rise and hesitated a moment before saying, "But sometimes we can see ... ... If you like to play together ..."
I asked for a meeting or was sognado?
"Sure ... I'd love to." Almost stammered the sentence.
fell back on silence.
"I really like your dress tonight ..." she smiled.
"Really? I did not know I was also a great expert on fashion. "I teased, was not credible that a man liked a dress like that." Anyway, thanks ... told by a teacher like you is a compliment. "She blushed slightly , meet his gaze was always a blast to the heart.
"Feel honored!"
We laughed together. The atmosphere was relaxed, in the end it was a very normal guy and not the god that I had idealized unattainable.
"Are not you cold?" whispered approaching.
"A little ..." I shrugged. Indeed, the air was anything but warm and I was wearing a short dress dicisamente.
crept even closer to me. Now our legs touched the minimum breath.
"Very nice your cover of the Ronettes." Said, breaking the silence that had once again invaded the conversation.
felt to have her face almost completely red as my dress.
He looked at me smiling. It seemed that he understood perfectly those who had dedicated. I wonder if it was just my impression.
"Um ... Thank you ..." hissed.
"The air begins to be cold ..." he put his arm while his face closer to mine.
closed his eyes to wait for that shot from the first moment I saw him.



Our lips met, softly. Our tongues entwined in a kiss that never before had now received. The head is more reasoned, there was nothing around, if we do not close in a hug and a kiss, warm and full of passion.
"I am cold ... Come to my room, will you? "I said without even thinking, still shaken and excited for that moment that I could never forget.
Without a word we went to my room.



barely knew him, but I know him from a life of Sebra. At the first appointment, moreover, not official, you should not go to bed with someone, but he was different, I abandoned myself entirely to him all night until we fell asleep.



Tonight You're Stealing My Heart ...
Tonight, I'm dreaming with you Holding me Sweetly

Completely Cozy
Sweaty sleep like babies,
Tonight, tonight with you ...

And mentally I wrote my first love song.

yet sunk into the warm blankets tempore was awakened by a caress. I opened my eyes slowly blinking to get used to matturina light filtering through the windows and saw her face in front of my. He had been with me all night, had not fled, in fact I had woken up with the sweetest of gestures.
"I gotta go, honey ..." he whispered, "I lecture in the morning and I would go out of my room. You continue to sleep. "I did not finish speaking and I fiondai blankets and jumped out of his neck. It was too good to be true and was not a dream. The portrait of happiness that morning was me.
After some repeated effusions that could not hold back, we said goodbye and I promised that I would call in the afternoon. I prepared
sang and danced, the sun was shining and no thought black could darken my sky.
As I opened the door to my room to get out to go to class I was struck by a very curious Elvira.
"I saw him come out last night and this morning," cried triumphantly with his hands on her face in surprise
"Elly, you've been on the lookout all night?" I laughed and locked the door of the room.
"Let's say ... Coincidentally are out now ... is ... well ... You did?!?" went so far without too many pleasantries. I knew that he wanted to know.
"What do you think?" and showed the pacifier that I had in my neck and I noticed when I had brushed my hair.
"I also did a pacifier?" Came up to my neck in order to study better, "But it's a leech! Did you see anyway? He likes you!" retired crossing his arms and showing off his usual smile, who knows he is always right.
"Yes, Elly, certainly liked him tonight, but ..." and happiness was immediately removed from the thoughts the more obvious "If it was only one thing a night away? I love it!"



"You call, you'll see ... I saw the look it had when it came out ... Apparently you did un buon lavoro..." sogghignò maliziosa.
"Che scema!” le diedi una pacca sulla spalle e cercai di cambiare discorso, non volevo affondare in brutti pensieri così di primo mattino “E comunque anche tu eri in atteggiamente sospetti col biondino."
"Uh, si, lui... Probabile che lo riveda..." rispose quasi se si parlasse del tempo.
"Ma non è il tuo tipo, giusto?"
"Esatto... Il mio tipo non esiste!”
"Sei tutta matta... Allora, Pretty-In-Pink si va a lezione?"
"Oh, certo, mia fiammeggiante stellina del sesso..." rise fragorosamente.



"Elly!!!" la ribeccai mentre mi sorpassò con passo veloce per uscire.
"There, there, on the way you talk to me ... Those hidden qualities of its low ..." and pointed at the floor, but that obviously did not mean for sure.
"If you mean his penis ... I'm not going ..."
"Oh, yes, that you want ..." I interrupted. I had no way out, he wanted the details.

For lunch I went back to the dorm, but it was impossible to swallow something I was excited at the thought that I called and then rushed upstairs, put my mobile phone on the side of the couch and started watching TV, then read, then to study and damn deal remained silent!
Even Jamie, just before going to play, had come to tell me not yearn so much, probably was involved with the group, classes and study.
the evening I was exhausted and he had not been felt. In me the feeling that I had only used for one night made its way forcefully, I mentally cursed for being so stupid. In the dormitory calm reigned over all, I left the others in their rooms and now I was about to enter the mine. Slowly I lowered the handle and entered. I threw the bag on the bed without turning on the light and went to the bureau to take her pajamas when I felt a presence behind me, I touched her back.
I tried to scream, but the person behind me blocking the mouth with his hand, I dimenai were unsuccessful to escape from the stranglehold that kept me close to that between I did not hear the word confosione the Blonde. I froze in his arms and slowly loosened his grip, when they released me fiondai to the power switch to turn on the light that lit up her face.
"Say, but are you crazy?" Attacked him, I really got a shot and my heart was still beating wildly, "How did you get?" The door must be closed theoretically "Wow, you made me be a hit . I sighed nervously touching their hair.
"Excuse me, did not want to scare you ..." shrugged innocently.
'Well, you did all right ... What are you doing here? "
"I was moved to say hello, I saw the door open and entered. I did not to call you so ... "
" So you've decided to come and play the little maniac with me? And then the door was locked, how the hell did you open it? "I was not sure at most, but I was convinced.
" No, really ... I was open to surprise you ... "she smiled tilting her head as a beaten dog. "You're angry because I did not call? Your cell phone was turned off and so ... I regret very much. Believe me. "
" The mobile phone turned off? "I took the bag inside rummaging to find the phone. It was turned off. The battery must have downloaded and I realized I was not even me. My stupidity was getting worse by the hour. His hazel eyes I were staring with that look ... I tried not to let him know my gaf and returned to the theme.
"No, not for what is" lying "but I forgive you ..." How could I not?
"Come here ..." came up to me "I promise I will not do more than the bastard, okay?"
He squeezed gently stroking my hair. I could die at that moment and be sent straight to heaven.
"Then I can spend the night again with this beautiful blonde?" smiled.
"I swear that if you stop calling me blonde, I'll break your legs!" I laughed crystalline and radiant. He knew how to make me happy just with a glance.
was another wonderful night ...

In the following days we visited a lot. We see the evidence of their groups, I met the other members of his band, nice guys, maybe a little fitted. Bassist believed to be the best on the square, and immediately dislikes guardagnò Elvira could not bear that his way of doing so presumptuous and arrogant to do.
hear him play was beautiful: I always lost in keeping with the blank stare and even listen to his lyrics it was fun, even though they were absurd. His last was found
un'iquietante ballad in which he declared to be dead, from hell to sing and setting out the exact dimensions of his coffin buried somewhere. Sometimes it scared me, but it was so angelic, and it was sweet. However we had not made any promise, in short, we were not officially together. Or at least there we were never told.
went out every night, also studied together at times. I could not understand how much he liked it though, which was quite frustrating.
Until one day while we were in my closet to prove some kind of agreement did not begin with a speech ...
"Look, Lu ... And if we were a. .." hesitated a moment, while trying to perfect agreement.
"Prove what? Change some agreement? So you do not like?" head down staring at the rope, holding it squeezed the neck of the guitar more firmly
"No, no, I meant to be together ... ... ... In other words, sense of the word ... "his voice trembled almost was not good at these things.
I looked up giving up the guitar neck, the expression of surprise.
" That is ... You're my boyfriend now? "Involuntarily and then he pointed to me.
'Well ... Yes .. And you ... "
" Your girl. "Picked it up again.
" Exactly. "He looked down at running a hand through his hair.



I looked at him smiling, it was impossible that rispondesi not. I had in hand.
At this point ... everything was just perfect ...

The time flew and we had almost reached the winter holidays. I had big plans for those holidays, I convinced my parents to let me there, after returning home would be a long and tiring. In fact no member of the Flaming Stars was going to leave the campus. Each for different reasons: Elvira had no desire to go home simply because they wanted to see his father and his new girlfriend, Jamie could not follow his beloved and he too decided to follow and stay on campus spassersela empty. While it was sad on the other hand, the positive side, we could do everything that we wanted to mess that no one would ever say anything.
My beloved Jack had decided to spend the holiday in the mountains as every year, I let him go alone, in the end we were together recently and I did not feel to beg to bring with him or stay with me.
However, someone in our dorm felt tormented and destroyed, and sobbed quietly in our closet.
I saw her there. Sitting and watching the void. He cried. Much. He turned to me ... The trick cast on her cheeks, her cheeks pink with black, swollen eyes. What had been able to disturb my beautiful porcelain doll?
"Elly ..." I whispered floor walking slowly, almost on tiptoe, toward her.